to y'all, Family, Friends, who help me since the
beginning of that Hell of a
your Love, I get the strength to move on
- This journal helps
me a lot to stay positive.
- I had the idea of it
because I found some other testimonies which helped me
a lot when I was in despair and panic, searching for
information on cyberspace.
2004, April - June :
Three total Epilepsy
ceizures, and then a bunch of examinations reveal a
brain tumor Doctors present as a benign
- I must say I never
suffered with epilepsy before..
2004, july 12 :
After cuttin' my long
hair with my three children's help all around of
- I have successfull
brain surgery in the "Toulon Sainte-Anne's Army
Hospital" which is five minutes far from
- The tumour is
totally removed and I hope to get soon my guitars back
in hands to,
- at last, record this
new album which has been ready for two years now
2004 , September :
According to the
Analysis, tumour is a graded III
- It's non malignant
tumour, but which has this "easily growing back"
default I'll learn about later...
- For now, I have to
begin a long time PCV chemiotherapy and radiotherapy
- plus the
anti-epileptic medication that I take since the
operation, what should lead me to the end of
- We already eat
"organic" at home, but we get harder in that way, and
I begin a very particular chemio adapted
- As a homeopathy
adept, you can imagine how difficult it is for me to
enter in this chemiotherapy
- I also start a kind
of a psychotherapy leaded by a good female coach I met
"on the way",
- to try to understand
how this shit came into me, and try to find the way
- It' a great help
- with friend Jean
Muller, november 2004 under Riviera's
- Getting back on
stage is my priority, but I should not say when,
because I'm so tired, and the tumor being right
- I lost both left
hand and leg dexterity... Playing my particular guitar
style becomes mostly impossible!
2005, January :
I hardly succeed playin'
three tunes for kids and parents in my 3 year little
- 2005, February -
March : 30 days
radiotherapy. let's say goodbye to the beautiful hair
which was growin' back,
- and here I am as a
"Huron" warrior, just before my
- 2005, April 7 : I'm 40 ! I
didn't imagine it like that, but I feel great... Check
this out !
- Even if a small epilepsy
crisis can cross the treatment for time to time. We
re-enforce the treatment.
- I get back on drivin' my
- As I became a Relaxation,
Visualization & Meditation practiser, I realise
some little slide music tunes in this way.
- 2005, May :
Two "crazy" trips driving
my Blue Ford : Duke Robillard's show in Marseille on
- where I join my friends
Deblouze ; and later
my old friend Van Wilks' show (I was his bass player
for a few days back in 1998)
- in Salon-de-Provence on
28th, at Portail-Coucou,
a cool club I didn't know before. I promise to myself
I'll be playin' there one day!
Summer 2005 : home most
of the time. Rest, I need much rest. Too hot and I
must avoid sunshine.
- Chemio, more chemio. Frends
and family often come to visit and I
- Then comes Avignon Blues
Festival where I go to listen to John Primer and Keith
- Six ears later my own show
in that festival, I'm back in the audience, happy to
see nobody's forgotten me.
- Thank you Michel Laporte for
your words about me in your introduction, Jean-Pierre
- David "Peppermint"
to mmet you at last, and
all the team of this beautiful event...
- (photos J.P.
2005, September : New school
year... for kids, Poppy and I!
- To exercise my brain, I
learn german language and teach guitar to my german
- I get deeply involved in a
spiritual quest (I've always been a "mysical person"
and start practising Yoga.
November: I receive my
Darshan, as she's for three days in Toulon's
Doctors discover the
tumour is growin' back in the same place.
- As I wasn't expecting that
kind of stuff, I get a little bit crazy. New Brain
surgery and chemiotherapy are the next
- I make my own research. I
discover this extraordinary french Professeur
works and products
- still forbidden in France
and shamely hidden by
french official medecine drugs lobby.
- I mentally prepare myself to
be the more serene possible, and family helps a lot
: Brain Surgery is made
again by the same Doc whom I trust a lot.
- The tumour is no longer
visible on the post-operation M.R.I.
- Everyting seems to be
alright, and I took my 136 pounds and 5' 11" back home
on january 20th at night.
- I begin a new "Temodal" type
chemiotherapy for the next year, still with the same
- Strangely, I feel that
sensation I can play guitar more easily than after the
Februry, 2006 :
Post-operative shock : a
huge brain dema makes me begin a left-side
- and sends me back in
hospital for one week on a cortisone drip.
- Back home, and back on
chemio one week later...
: Each Temodal chemio
cure is a terrible pain in my belly for more than a
- I notice I didn't have any
epilepsy crisis since december...
- So we reduce the
anti-epileptic treatment to get more energy in the
morning so I can work in studio.
- I get back to guitars, harps
& stool... And goes at last in a studio to record
2006, May 4
: The control M.R.I. that
I just had the day earlier shows an almost disparition
of the oedema,
- and the decrease of what
could be tumour residue on the one before
- So we keep on the treatment.
Next M.R.I.will be on the end of july.
- Oh, I forgot
in the studio ! Lord, it's so good to feel himself
makin' music again
2006, End of June :
8 tracks are finally
cut... I love them.
- Great time of happiness with
Eric Bibb's concert in Marseille's Gard'en Blues
- I met there my good parisian
bluesfriend Pat Boudot-Lamot, who's here to play with
Leadfoot Rivet & his Blues Conspiracy
- Thanks Pat, your CD's
playin' at home. Big Hug.
- 2006, August
July 25th MRI is
- No more oedema and almost
disparition of the tumour,
proof that the treatments are
doin' good on me.
- Brother J.
Dustin Sommers just
sent me his last dedicated CD to encourage, and it
does a lot.
- Thanks for his care and this
magnificent love that shines all around
- I had to stop the recordings
in July because of the heat situation here, and the
circadas who sing louder than me!
- We'll get back on the job
when it's time... Waiting for it, I write and compose
some new material.
- And at last, let's go for a
real vacation back on atlantic ocean with my beloved
family, first time in four years.
- Sweet Emmylou of
- 2006, October 15 :
I just ended my seventh
Temodal cure out of the twelve I have to
- I'm tired but it's gonna be
okay, cause I'm in good form since my
- I've been swimmin', runnin',
workin'out... I keep on keepin' on, and just started
my second year of Yoga.
- I'm gettin' some weight back
: went down to 134 pounds, I'm back on
- The neurologist is
progressively decreasin' my cortisone and
- But, what I've been waitin',
and also dreadin' these past days, was to get back to
- because of this new recent
interruption in my guitar practisin' (too much heat
- There it goes : three new
tunes on three sessions, it makes ten ouf the twelve I
have to make !
- You bet how happy I am. Next
MRI on half-November.
- 2006, November
Even in a very good shape
today, I can't help being such nervous while waiting
for an MRI results.
- The last one I had two days
ago is actually an excellent one! I just learned it on
the phone this afternoon,
- as I was walking back home
from downtown ; I walk very often theses days, and it
really bucked me up !
- Next week, I'm havin' my
eightieth Chemio cure.
- Back to music, I still have
11 tracks, which makes one more track to
- It's a fast tune, I already
had tried it at the beginning of those sessions, but I
- Gonna try again one of these
days, so I can soon introduce to you my next
Happy New Year !!
2007, January 23 : Today is the
beginning of my tenth chemio cure.
- Results are still good, I
will have another MRI in the end of March.
- My birthday should coincide
with my final cure : is 42 the age of Victory
- For now, time is in
patience, meditation, and... wisdom.
- I still can't play that 12th
- anyway the studio recently
moved and is having work done,... just like me
2007, February 28 : Eleventh
cure is on, and as we're on holidays, I'm very
- Strong Wind of these last
days mede me rediscover a delightful sensation : my
hair movin'. I like that.
- My buddies' rockin' band
show was excellent and gave me some
- The studio should be ready
soon, I get myself ready to record this twelve and
- but something makes me think
it vould coincide with that twelve and final
- MRI is planned on March 29,
before the cure, but will determine ifd it's really
the final one.
2007, April 2 : Fresh air fills
my lungs as sunshine warms my body...
- Is this happiness ? Poppy
and I are getting out from hospital, walking slowly,
with a smile on our faces.
- The MRI is more than
beautiful, I never saw such a healthy pic of my brain
- doc said "you're in
remission, monsieur Langlois". Remission ! It's a
- Let's stop chemio and keep
medical supervision with a new MRI in four months,
- next one five months later ;
then one every six months...
- I feel goooood !
2007, April 7 : That's it, I'm
42, and back to work in Atoll's brand new
- It took me two half-a-day
sessions to spit out only a half of this 12th
- I understand that I will
have to wait some more time.
- I'm weak, catch every dirty
thing which comes close to me, specially this
bronchitis which won't leave me for the next two
2007, May :
Time to begin a big
natural treatment to clean up my whole organism so I
can get my immune defences back.
- 2007, June 7: After this
two-month interruption, I went back in studio this
morning, very decided to cut that final
- And here I am ! I made it,
- The material for this CD is
the one I wrote in 2000-2001 and played on stage then
- That's why I'd like to add
one song from today...
- I have something in mind, I
keep workin' on it, will tell you about it still on
this page !
2007, July 6 : I told you
: a thirteen song came out, connected with everyting
occured on this page !
- I played several parts on
this tune, and I have a guest : my friend Jean with
- I don't say more, you will
have to listen...
2007, July 23 : First
control MRI and appointment with neurologist since the
chemio cure ended.
- I'm goin' with strange
feelings, mixing trust and fear.
- Results are good and the
smile is back on my face... The doctor keeps on slowly
decreasin' the anti-epileptic treatment.
- I leave for holydays. I
think I deserve it.
9 : Today we all went out
to shoot some beautiful pics to make a nice
- Marc "No Fish" Poveda and I
start mixing the thirteen tracks of the new Album
19 : I had a new MRI and
it's very good ! Let's keep on keepin' on
- I was so scared
- Master is ready, digipack
& booklet too.
- The new album is named
"THANKFUL", and should be released soon...
- Marc did a wonderful job, I
love the sound !
2008, January 1st :
The CD is here, but Poppy
left the Ship...
- End of Story, see you on the